Sometimes things happen to us and we have no idea why. We start going back through our lives and trying to evaluate what it is we did wrong or right. Who did we hurt. Should I have done this or that. Most of us believe in Karma and I believe that is what makes us go back and re think our actions and behaviours.
I find myself literally always thinking. Sometimes I get a headache simply because my mind wont shut down. I go to bed thinking and I wake up thinking. Sometimes when I wake up early I go into prayer. Sometimes I don’t, I simply lay there.
Have you ever had these feelings or is it just me? Do you have incomplete thoughts throughout the day? Do you believe in Karma? Do you believe that what comes around goes around? Do you think that perhaps maybe when things happen to you it’s because at some point in your life you did something to someone else?
You know I lost my puppy about a week ago. My oh my I thought that I was going to die!!! I never knew what it meant to lose a puppy because I had never lost one. And you hear others talking about it but it doesn’t hit home until it happen to you. To this day I find it hard to sleep. I find myself seeing his body on the ground. I see him doing things that he use to do. Tuesday when I was in the kitchen I know I saw him sit right beside my left leg.
I’m a very visual person. I hate that sometimes. Because I have a very hard time getting images out of my head once I see them. This sometimes hinders me to forgive. I know that in order for me to move forward that I must get pass these things. Problem is I don’t know how to because of the things that I see.
So how do you get images out of your head? How do you deal with hurt and pain if the pictures, the images, the visuals constantly keep being relived in my head?
I’m just thinking out loud. However if you have answers to this please leave me a comment or two.
Also even as I type this blog my mind is racing. So many things popped up while I was typing that it was hard to stay focus.
Sandra A. Parks