I can’t seem to stop thinking of my puppy ToTo. He was a 5 year old Terrier mixed with Poodle. He had been in my life since 2004. I miss him so much! I can’t even express or begin to tell you. He meant the world to me. Now some don’t think that puppies have souls but I beg to differ.
ToTo was very much so human. He was such a big light in my life! He always made me smile! ToTo would make you love him. You couldn’t just come into my house and act like he didn’t exist. He was smart too! He knew how to get in the chair at the table and eat with us. OMG he would lay in the bed with you all day. If you didn’t move he wouldn’t move. How could someone kill him?
We live in an evil world now-a-days. I sometimes wish that I could just die because of all the evil. It’s just too much for me to handle. I stay around and encouraged because of my babies to include my three (now two) puppies. I just know that they need me.
I have a 19 year old daughter that even though she is in the Army I know that she still needs me. I have a 17 year old son that is sometimes head strong but I know he still needs me. I also have a 12 year old son that I must stay around for because I know in my heart no one would do right by him right because some think that he is bad. And now I just have two Maltese left.
ToTo will be memorialized this weekend. The Animal Control folks didn’t tell me that I could get his remains cremated so I didn’t have that done. When I called this morning they had already done away with him. SMH!!! I type this blog with tears in my eyes. Oh my I haven’t felt this way since my grand daddy died!!! It’s an undescribable pain. But I feel most comfortable when I’m sleep. When I’m awake I keep seeing his body all over the road behind my house.
And to add to my pain I honestly think that someone in my housing area killed my baby!!!
He was a well diverse puppy. He had been all over the US and he had very great manners!! Everybody loved him. He didn’t meet no strangers. The world has really lost a precious baby, I promise you!!!
At any rate I will post more about my baby later. I will also add some pictures for you all to see. He was a special baby.