In the clouds

My mind never stops. It’s seems to do what it wants to do lately. I have some skills that I’ve learned to use but sometimes I guess I’m too lazy to practice what I’ve learned. Mind you I’ve paid a lot of money to learn these tactics. Perhaps I’m not too lazy. Maybe my mind races so much that it’s become the norm so by the time I think to utilize my tools it’s already double timing. Either way this ole mind of mine is something else.

There was a movie, I can’t recall the name of it, but the couple had made some sex videos and the husband was storing them in the cloud on various iPads. Once the iPads got full he’d sell the iPads or give them away. I can’t remember which one. But he thought that what he was saving, the sex videos, were going in the clouds. What he didn’t know was that all those videos were still on those iPads he sold or gave away. So the movie had a saying, “nobody understands the clouds.” I find that to be so very true. I think sometimes my mind works like the clouds. There are a lot of compartments up there. I think that I’m filing things in one compartment but in reality it goes in another compartment. Anybody else feel this way sometimes? I find this to be most true when I’m not focused. Now when I’m focused. The clouds have nothing on me. I’m a dominate force. 💪🏽💪🏽

What I realize here lately is that when everything is going as planned or how I think things should go I’m very focused and dedicated to whatever work I’m doing. But when something comes to throw me off it’s as if a hurricane has hit me. Again does anybody else experience this? Now not just anything throws me off but if it’s someone I care about or something that means something to me, it really can take me off my course. I sometimes talk to myself afterwards like I’m giving myself a debrief and ask myself all these questions such as why did you allow that to move you? What could I have done differently to remain focused? When I feel myself getting distracted what could I do differently to take control of the situation? And yes I answer myself. After I had this dialogue often times I feel silly because hind sight allows me to see that it wasn’t that important anyways. Or that I over analyzed something or thought too much into something.

Most people that know me know that I’m a very emotional person. I’ve been told that I wear my emotions and/or my feelings on my shoulders. And that’s true. But ONLY towards people and things that I care about. Because if you ask my co-workers they’d say I’m so nonchalant to where most of them think I’m mean.

Be mindful of what you put out in the universe. Someone is always watching you. And guess what? Nobody understands the cloud. Be encouraged.

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This morning

I woke up this morning feeling different. I’ve been living in a state of fear and this morning I woke up feeling different. It was a feeling of “girl get it together”. It was sort of an odd feeling but I thank God for it.

Fear is such a crippling emotion. Once you fall into it you can’t even move or think right. You’re like frozen. There is a scripture in the Bible that says God didn’t give us a spirit of fear. I totally get it now. Without a sound mind you’re lost. I dont care how many degrees you have. How huge your vocabulary is. It doesn’t matter. You are not able to advance any agenda if you’re working in fear.

So I decree on this day that I will not walk in fear anymore. When and if it tries to return I’ll use the tools I’ve learned in therapy to overcome it. I’ll pray. I’ll meditate. I’ll journal. I’ll go for a walk or something but I will NOT stay in the state fear. I will NOT.

You know in life you’ll experience various things and guess what? That’s okay. But during or in the experience please make sure that you’re growing. Don’t become stagnant. Don’t let it make you bitter or angry. Fight through it. Life is not as short as people say it is. But life is very valuable. And if you’re able to experience it, do just that. Experience IT. Be open to the challenges. But don’t let it become a wave that takes you under. There are tools that can help you overcome what ever challenges comes upon you.

I encourage you to visit my blog and read these post. Come back whenever you feel the need to. I’m here to help and not judge. The word of God teaches me that we overcome by the words of our testimonies and by the blood of the lamb. So I don’t mind sharing with the world my testimonies if my savior will get the victory and if I can help someone. Don’t be out here thinking you’re alone. That’s a trick of the enemy to getting you feeling you alone. But let me tell you you’re not alone. Just this past Saturday I got so low I wanted to just sleep away, literally. That’s a dangerous place. I’m always in a state of encouraging myself and I’d love to encourage you.

Be blessed my beautiful readers. This too shall pass. And guess what? If you keep pressing your way hopefully you’ll see a new day tomorrow and you’ll be blessed with some new mercy and grace and that right there will be the strength you need to move on. Don’t give up and don’t look be. Be encouraged!

Letting it go

Life happens right? Well that being the case let it go and move on. Right? Well what if that’s not the right thing to do? What if you’re not suppose to move on and let it go? Should you fight for what you want and if so for how long? Can situations change? Can people change? Can YOU change? Let’s talk about it.

I’ve not blogged in about a week because guess what? Life has been happening. I’ve had decisions to make. I’ve had to do things and say things. I dont know if I’ve made the right decisions but I’ve made them and I’ve decided to move forward. But what does moving forward really look like? What does it feel like? For me I still think about my decisions. I still feel some kind of way behind the decisions I’ve made. So what does that mean? Does it mean I made a mistake? I dont know the answers to these questions so I’m blogging in hopes of getting feed back from you, the reader.

I’m here to speak and share my truth. I’ve been taught that you make a decision you deal with it and suffer the consequences and move forward. However after 40 something years of living I dont know if that’s the correct way. My counselor tells me to live within my emotions. For example if I’m feeling scared or sad or depressed or whatever she told me to take time and feel each of those emotions. So since I’m paying I’m trying my hardest to follow her lead. So what does it feel like to live in the emotion of sadness? I can tell you that it doesn’t feel good. I ask myself why are you doing this? My answer is because my counselor told me to. And I’m thinking if my way hasn’t worked all these years why not try her way. However how do I even know that my way wasn’t working? So many questions huh?

Betrayal, how do you live in that emotion? What does that feel like? It hurts. It makes you see the person that betrayed you different. It almost or shall I say it makes you hate the betrayer. Is that a word, betrayer? When living in the emotions should it make you feel hate towards someone or something? I mean I honestly don’t know so I’m seriously asking. Thought we were suppose to love everybody. Lol. No but serious. Perhaps the reason why I never lived in my feelings is because of the pain that you experience. For me it’s easier to just move on instead of basking in a particular pain.

Anyways talk to me. Tell me what you think about letting go. About living in your emotions. Dealings with hardship and upheavals. Talk to me. Should we or should we not let it go?

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Blogging

Do you blog?  If so what about?  How often do you blog?  Do you have a blog page for every particular industry/topic that you blog about? 

These are questions that are asked by people that are thinking/interested in blogging.  Different people will tell you different answers to these questions as well.  However I will tell you based on my experience and research it is very important that once you begin to blog that you keep it up.  It’s vital that once you put your blog out there and get attention that you keep it updated and free from grammar errors. 

I don’t think that in order to have a successful blog that you have to ONLY blog about one particular topic.  However if you have a professional blog that is directly pertaining to your professional business then it is in your best interest to blog only about your professional business.

Blogging is very theraputic.  However it can be very educational, inspirational, and you can tell about your own professional interest as well.  The main thing about blogging is simply start!  Waiting for this or that is simply not wise.  So begin to blog.   Start blogging and adjust accordingly.  Your blog site should give you some stats as to how many people are coming by regardless to if they are leaving comments.  So for example if after a week or two you are not getting any activity it may be wise or in your best interest to try something else unless you are blogging on your professional topic.  Surely you would want to give it more then a 2 week minimum.  

So the key is to begin some where.  So go ahead start blogging, why not!!

Sandra Parks

Scam E-mail Sends Malicious Software to Recipients’ Computers

In recent weeks, a phony e-mail claiming to come from the IRS has been circulating in large numbers. The subject line of the e-mail often states that the e-mail is a notice of underreported income. The e-mail may contain an attachment or a link to a bogus Web page directing taxpayers to their “tax statement.” In either case, when the recipient opens the attachment or clicks on the link, they download a Trojan horse-type of virus to their computers.

Malicious code (also known as malware), of which the Trojan horse is but one example, can take over the victim’s computer hard drive, giving someone remote access to the computer, or it could look for passwords and other information and send them to the scammer. The scammer will then use whatever information they gather to commit identity theft, gain access to bank accounts and more.

The IRS does not send unsolicited e-mails to taxpayers about their tax accounts. Anyone who receives an unsolicited e-mail claiming to come from the IRS should avoid opening any attachments or clicking on any links. People can report suspicious e-mails they receive which claim to come from the IRS to a mailbox set up for this purpose, phishing@irs.gov. Those who believe they may already be victims of identity theft should find out what do by going to the U.S. Federal Trade Commission’s Web site, OnGuardOnLine.gov

Sandra Parks, 972.569.7938/saprpm@yahoo.com