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Today I Cried

Today I cried.  It felt so good.  I needed that.  I had been holding so much in the inside trying to be so strong for everyone else.  But today I broke down.  So many emotions and feelings.  Some were of anger, pain, hurt, feelings of betrayal, loneliness, happiness, thankfulness to mention a few.  I can’t really tell you everything that I was feeling.  But I know I was able to vent to Soror Nedra.  My oh my you talking about  “we help each other for we know there’s no other like our sisterhood” that is what sisters are for.  I so appreciate her for just lending me her ear for a few minutes.  Sometimes thats all it takes is a few minutes.

Then my cousin Nikki texted me and I was able to really just tell it all to her since she knows everything.  And it was as if I was in the counselors chair.  I just poured it all out.  And then came the tears.  I tried to hold my head up and not make a sound because I didn’t want my boys to hear me.  But it just came out.  I had no control.  I don’t know if you have ever been in the spirit and tried to come out and you couldn’t.  Well that is what happen to me today.  I so needed that.  Because I’ve not been to therapy in almost a year now. 

Sometimes keeping yourself busy to not focus on your problems doesn’t work.  And I know for me I have to be strong for so many that I have to put myself off often times.  But how many of us know that you MUST take care of yourself before you can take care of others.  Thus the reason why the flight attendants tell you to put your mask on before you help your child or anyone else.

I don’t celebrate holidays.  However Thanksgiving is just one of those days that I think you are just supposed to be surrounded by loves ones.  It’s such an emotional day for me.  And this morning something so strong came over me.  It was so overwhelming.  But again I thank the Lord on today for just placing someone in my life that allowed me to vent. 

I don’t know about you but my battles start in my mind.  That is where the devil tries to get the best of me.  But how many of you know that he is defeated on today?  He doesn’t have the victory over my mind nor my body nor my soul.  But Jesus made a way of escape for me today just as he promised.  You know I love me some Jesus.  I really do.  I can’t tell you all that he’s done for me because I would be writing for days.  But when I tell you that he is a healer, that he is a friend, that he is a life line, that he is a keeper, that he is long-suffering, that he is patient, but also he chastises me as well.  And I appreciate him for that alone.  I thank him for getting on to me when I’m out of line.  I thank him that I have an ear to hear when he is getting on to me.

You know I have so much to be thankful for on today.  Not because its Thanksgiving but because when I didn’t want to live any more he told me that “THIS IS NOT UNTIL MY DEATH” when I wanted to just give up he wouldn’t allow me and because of that I’ve seen one child off to the US Army, I have one graduating next year and I’m raising my last one with love and patience as well.  I’m so glad that I’m still around to talk to them and tell that I love them and that I’m here for them.  I’m just so grateful on today.  Not only has he allowed me to raise my children; he has allowed me to be a positive force in so many youth today.  And for that I’m grateful as well.  My soul rejoices in him tonight.  I’m happy in Jesus tonight.  He has truly been a wonder in my soul!!!

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Venting Via my Blog

My heart is so heavy right now!  I guess I should have never gone on that youtube site to look at the teenager being beat in Chicago.  Initially I had just heard of it and was reading the media outlets.  But after watching it you have to be dead not to feel something.  I just don’t know what to say or do.

Anyone that knows me knows that I love the kids.  I love working with them and encouraging them.  One day while in Atlanta on my way to my sister house we saw three little girls and three little boys going into the bushes at around midnight.  I spoke in a loud voice asking LaVerne to stop so that I could tell the little girls not to go into the woods this time of night with those little boys.  I knew they were up to no good.  But she said no.  She said that she wasn’t getting involved.  I believe that this was in June.  Just recently last week I had a dream that those girls were found dead.

One day I was in the Mall with Reggie and we saw this little boy with is his pants sagging.  I asked Reggie to say something to the little boy and he said no.  So I was going to say something to him instead and Reggie pulled me away and said Sandra come one and leave people alone.

I have a mentee that is a teenage mom (and so was I) that I work with.  One day she told me about her baby daddy hitting on her and I was driving around South Dallas trying to find this kid to speak to him.

These are just a few of the situations I’m sharing with you all now.  But there are so many more.  Its a sad day when the adults are afraid to chastise the youth today because of fear of them hurting us.  I remember when I was coming up my elementary teacher Ms. Hill would pull my ears because I had a big mouth and was always running it.  My oh my when I saw her heading towards my desk I knew I was in for that ear to be pulled red.  My granny didn’t say a word because she knew Ms. Hill was making sure that I got my lesson.  We have moved away from this as a nation.  No one wants the teachers to discipline the children although they are at the school 8 hours a day.  Then when they get home we so tired or so occupied on facebook and other things that we don’t pay them any attention either.  So  you have these kids with hours of no chastisement, no structure, no discipline, but yet we expect them to be the next President Obama.  Probably not gone happen.  Even the bible says that Jesus Chastised those that he loved.

It’s in my heart to help young people.  They have so many options today.   Do you know that all children of all backgrounds and socio-economic status can attend Harvard??  When I was a child Harvard was not even in my vocabulary.  But look at our children today.  The sky is the limit.  Often times they don’t even know this. That is why the shoot for some dreams.  That is way they take the easy way out.   So someone must tell them.  How come we don’t have more lawyers, doctors, Accountant, Engineers, CEOs, CFOs, COOs?  Because we are not showing them how to get into these fields.  But we shower them with the latest video games, the latest clothes, we allow them to have all those stupid hair cuts, color in your hair.  People we must tighten our shot groups and take our kids back!!!  It’s too simple!!!

I believe that our youth are hurting for many reasons.  You have some that are from single parent homes, some have been molested by family members that they looked up too, some are intimidated by other kids being placed higher then them, some are jealous over material things, some have learning disabilities that we are overlooking, some are missing their fathers, some have drug habits, some were carried by parents that were doing drugs while they were in the womb.  So many other factors come into play.  Our  babies need help.  Some are adults now that never got the help that they needed.

The system is going to put them in jail, what will that solve?  Some are going to get the death penalty, what will that solve?  Some we will let just wither away, what will that solve?  I don’t know what to do and I don’t know all the answers.  All my life I’ve been a lover of numbers.  But I’m human and I hurt when I see my young people going through.  I don’t care what color they are.  I’m a soldier and I’m green.  I’ve lived all over the world and I love people.  I love children.  I’m telling you that they need love.  And more love and then some more love!!!  But they also need discipline, they need structure, we can’t be their friends.  That is clearly not working.

What are we going to do?  I don’t know so if someone wants to help me please let me know.  I can start by offering them The Sandra Parks School of Etiquette.  You can find us on line at http://www.sandraparksschoolofetiquette.com or call 972.838.0106

Magnificant Mondays!!!

For some Monday’s are dreaded days but for me its another Magnificant time to continue to prepare for success. See everyday that I’m allowed to see is another day for me to stay focused on what it is I want to do. My overall goal is to come out of corporate and make a living for me and my children on my own! Now don’t get me wrong corporate America is not a bad place. But it’s not what I want. I’m a carefree spirited person! I love to help others! I love the ability to just get up and go. I can’t take someone watching me go on lunch for a hour!!! UGH!!! But I’m not complaining!!!

At any rate let me encourage each of you to get out and explore! Dig deep down inside and figure out what it is you really like doing and step out on faith! Make sure you have paid off your bills though if you can. But go out and do what it is you really like doing. Even if it is the same thing that you are doing for your current employer do it for yourself! You can make much more and enjoy much more freedom doing it for yourself. It’s really not that hard. I’m a single parent of three and I enjoy doing my own thing!!

Stop by later on in the week and I’ll give you some more income tax information along with some much needed etiquette tips as well. 2010 is going to be a prosperous year for me and for you!!! Not making any new years resolutions either just speaking things into existence thats all.

Be blessed! You can look me up on facebook, LinkedIn, MSN Live or you can visit my website at www.sandraparksschoolofetiquette.com or www.saptaxes.net (coming soon) and one other project is coming soon too. You will hear about it really soon right here on my blog so stay tuned and keep coming back! I won’t disappoint you I promise. You can also reach me at 972.838.0106 or 972.569.7938.

As always be blessed!

TGIF

Today’s blog is sweet and simple and to the point!  I thank the Good Lord above for allowing me to see another Friday that I’ve never seen before.  I’m thanking him for blessing me with my family and my friends.  You know I’m a young lady and I’ve been through so much.  But through the Grace and Mercy of my Jesus I’ve been so blessed to overcome and prosper just as he promised me.  You know he never promised us an easy road or no trails and tribulations.  As a matter of fact he promise that we would have our peaks and valleys but he also said that he would make a way of escape for us.  And on this Friday I thank him for my many escapes.  For when I look back over my life I know that I could have been dead and gone on so many occasions.  But he kept me!!!!  Yeap he kept me just like he is keeping all of you!!!  Thank you Jesus!!!!

Now for you reading this be blessed.  Count your blessings,  your many blessings.  Be thankful!  Tell someone that you love them and mean it!  Help someone other then your friends and families.  Be a light, a mentor, a friend to someone that needs it.  Give something of yourself.  Give away some of the stuff that you’ve been so blessed to have to someone that doesn’t have what you have.  And always love hard!  For these are just some of our reasonable services that we can do.

Until next time be blessed and I love you with the love of Jesus!!!

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